There's more of me

Dear Insulin,
I want to thank you so much for keeping me healthy, but enclosed is the 25 pounds that you have caused me to gain. That was an unexpected gift that you can have back. If I want to become a roly poly, I will be sure to let you know. Roly polies are so cute, however the show Roly Poly Olie is weird. I do not think I look good as a roly poly. Their life span is also fairly short... I am being desultory.

Sincerely,
The Intelligent Airhead

Blessings

Last Sunday, all 5 of us went to a church we are going to... We really like it, they are so welcoming and I definitely think we found a church home... I notice that many blog titles of mine have this same title... I just feel that there are so many blessings, I can hardly begin to count them. That helps on the rough days. It was the 8th anniversary of my mom's death. They sang a song called Blessings, that I had never heard before. I will share the lyrics here. It is so amazing...

                                                                        "Blessings"

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

blessings

I am so thankful for the people in my life. I am so thankful for the growth happening in my life, in my children and in my home 8).

i am so thankful for school, though I wish I could do better. I'll get there.

I'm feeling better, slowly but surely. It's taking awhile to heal me, which I suppose is understandable. This disease (diabetes) is horrible, and I completely hope they find a cure. I will definitely be doing JDRF walks and such. my numbers are lower, much lower, though they are still erratic.... I spend too much time in the 40-70 range... But we'll get me regulated. I'm a part of a great, great team.

As a type 1 diabetic (especially with no pump, because that's a clue, lol), I have purchased and am now wearing a diabetic alert necklace. I got the pendant off of ebay. It is amazingly awesome 8) It's a guitar pick that says diabetes on it... Kinda of a cool way of stating it 8D.

The boys are moving with their dad, so a lot of changes in their lives. They are changing school districts mid-Spring, which is a bummer. I really hope they adjust well, and I'm praying that all goes well.

update

So i'm taking care of my boyfriend's son during the week. He's 4 and he is a sweetheart. I  was thinking about how much of a helicopter parent I used to be. In addition to that, I was just uptight about *everything*. peace is good 8D.

My boyfriend and I are doing well. We're focusing on cleaning up our diets and that need is causing us to start a joint blog. I am really excited about that venture.

Work is going well, though I am doing less of it.

My boys are doing really well. They are so wonderful. I really feel so blessed.

We found a church as well that we try to go to as much as possible. So that's exciting as well.

my spare time craftiness...

3 golf club covers.

afghans for the boys

afghan for boyfriend

afghan for K.

afghan for friend at work

afghan for best friend's daughter

wardrobe for best friend's daughter

elephant for M.

afghan for M.

That's all 8D.

I'm #1, type 1 that is...

So the verdict has come back that I have type 1 diabetes after all of the misdiagnoses, etc. The truth is I don't know if I could have handled it until now. I have a wonderful man in my life and wonderful support and my sons are older... so this is good. i am adhering to the diet better than ever. It's boring but it's a good thing. I miss simple things, but fruit in unlimited quantities is my biggest roadblock. Dear reader, I intend to take you on my journey in my spare time... to a point.

Thanks for joining me!
Intelligent Airhead.

We can grow from where we are

One thing that I love about meditation and portions of Buddhism is the concept that we can grow from where we are. I have been having trouble mood-wise. I know one could argue that I have a lot going on and I react this way when I'm not feeling well... That's no excuse. I have a tendency to fall back to my regimented self when my life is in turmoil. The wonderful part about this is I can learn to be better. I have such understanding people around me that are patient and supportive. I just expect so much more of myself than the person I am being. The good thing is I can grow from here. That's a beautiful aspect.

In my spare time, hahahaha

So, i'm busy... This is the understatement of the year. Between family (including my boyfriend, his son, and fam), school (going full-time this semester), and full-time work (for now), I feel stressed and tired... Also, we're still sorting out the diabetes. Insulin is great but it can cause such lows and other side effects.

 We will soon have the definitive answer of whether I am type 1b (1.5) or type 2. I have more dr appointments next week, and I am especially nervous about one of them, but it will all be ok.

I had a rough day mood wise yesterday. I snapped at someone and just was cranky for the day 8( It happens but I will get better. Low blood sugar  makes me soooo cranky, but I don't want to make excuses, so this is another growth opportunity.

The boys have been doing well. A has had some tough times, but we're sorting through how to control his temper and calming himself down... (I am thankful I have my reminders of how hard controlling my mood can be. It also gives me great ideas to help my sons 8D) T is doing well and I have officially been nominated to help him in his Pre-ap math... not good 8D lol. They are amazing and growing so much.

God is wonderful. I am very thankful for His blessings in my life.