peace

Peace is not the lack of conflict, but the presence of a calm mind and spirit. I'm not sure if I just created that statement or not, but I have seen a similar sentiment throughout my reading. Most of all, this statement should and will depict the way I choose to live.

Life is always happening. the waves don't stop sometimes. Every once in awhile, it seems we are bobbing in treacherous waters barely given the time to breathe before the next conflict arrives.

I am amazing. My life is amazing and my family is amazing.

I am at peace with life and with the pain I see on the horizon.

My Heavenly Father is with us, shielding us, holding us and helping us through our trials, and that is a beautiful, peaceful feeling.

Breath

When I am finding my center and my happy place as it were, I breathe deeply. I fill my lungs, heart and soul with just the idea of the breath that keeps me alive, that sustains my very fiber. This is a portion of my meditation. I am really focusing on staying at rest and at peace as much as possible. It makes life so much easier for me to deal with. I love the feeling I get when I am just breathing deeply. I am so thankful for how meditation is shaping my life. Growth is imperative in this, but it is so worth it 8)

Control

"You never had control. That's the illusion!" - Jurassic Park

I can be a control freak. I don't mean to be controlling and I know, overall I am a good person...

But I want to fix my controlling aspect for many reasons, including attaining peace within. It's difficult to be as controlling as I can be without it affecting our psyches.

One might not see my controlling aspects from the outside, and it does come out just occasionally, but I want to be better about it. When I am trying to control situations in my life, I am not trusting in God's plan. Ouch... That's blunt, but very true.

It is ok to delegate and to give opinions in a healthy way. I could be better at it. It's that condition called humanity that gets me once again 8)

I am so proud of the steps I have taken. I am awesome and doing better daily 8)


"Why do I do the things I do? Was I born this way? Am I a self-made fool...It takes work to be the jerk I've come to be. It ain't easy being me." -- Chris Knight (covered by Blake Shelton)

This used to be my theme song. I see now why I have made mistakes and the beauty in it is I can be better and learn from my mistakes. God heals the cracks within my soul and I am grateful for that 8)

New endeavor

I have mentioned the hope that we would start this and it's here. My boyfriend and I have started a blog on how we are becoming healthier and increasing our good habits. We would like you to join us on our journey to becoming a healthier we, which is the name of our blog. The link is below. Thanks!

http://ahealthierwe.blogspot.com/

The storms come and go, but Your love remains the same.
The peace within fills my heart and my home, knowing You are there.
You hold my hand as we walk through the trials and tribulations of life.
My heart beats with anxiety as we walk through the rubble of the past storms.

Your imminent Light illuminates my life.
I am a better woman because of you.
Everyday, I walk on this path.
I follow your lead.

You will forever be  my Lord and my God.
I am in awe of your Presence.
Fill my heart, Lord and give me strength.
The Strength to lead by Your example,
To help others as they need someone,
To know you are blessing me in so many ways,
even when you feel far away.

one step forward

"and two steps back, you never get too far like that..." Thank you, Desert Rose Band, for singing a song about my life. Hehe, really it's all of us. Sometimes, we do a bit of a dance, in bettering ourselves and in healing. I try so hard to keep it together, but I really find that when I try to make everything work, and I'm not honest about my concerns, everything blows up in my face. God is good and I have forgiving people in my life, but I guess I'm more frustrated at me than anyone else is.

I have to forgive me too. I have to love me, because it's hard when someone is dissing on us all of the time, even if it's us 8).

More thoughts to follow, but God is good, blessings are amazing, and His peace fills the cracks of this imperfect soul.

Facing life headon...

Well, I'm facing life headon, don't know how well at the moment. I see the light on the other side of the tunnel and it's not a train, so that's a great thing... I stole a saying from a NPR pledge drive... 8D. Dave is helping me a great deal with this situation, and I am inherently grateful for that. 8)

Sometimes I want more from people than they have or they can give. This is true for people in my past, some family members and people all over my life. I am working on this in having more realistic expectations. It is difficult sometimes. Sometimes, all I want is someone to tell me they could have done better. I could have done better in many situations, so there's that as well.

This is a lot to think about and meditate on 8D