Confidence

As is often the case, I have a thought for a blog and it morphs into something that takes on a life of its' own. This is the main reason this is desultory randomness 80). Having a conversation is much the same, as I am desultory at best.

In thinking of my journey to where I want to be, I have come to confidence. Fear hinders confidence, so now that my fear is more bridled, confidence can't help but shine a light in me.

Sometimes, in taking a leap or step of faith, we stumble. I have recently done so. In doing this, I realize that true failure is not falling, it's failing to get back up.

The best thing to do is to hold my head high, and not be afraid. I have to try, even if I fail. If I fail, which we all do, then I can always be happy that I did my best and took a leap of faith.

My new theme song is Never Gonna Fly by Radney Foster --

You wanna feel the wind, you gotta take the ride.
You better dream big, you wanna touch the sky.
You can't be scared to risk it all.
You never gonna fly if you're afraid to fall.

Trying to fly is so exhilarating in that moment. The splat a few moments later can be disconcerting, however I can live with no regrets.

A short time ago, I blended in the background. I did not want to be noticed. Recently, Ive done numerous things that have brought me to the center of attention. I don't crave it, but I'm finding that it can be beneficial.

This brings me to Eminem --

Just as soon as I walk in, it's like all eyes on me
And so I try to avoid any eye contact
'Cause if I do that then it opens the door
For conversation, like I want that

This was me a short time ago.

Now I feel more confident in looking everyone in the eye (except when I'm embarrassed or hurt).

I feel like I can do anything I need to. I am so thankful for God's strength in all I do. I am also thankful for each one of you 80)