I am beautiful

When I was struggling to love myself all the time, someone told me to agape love myself... Love all of me. Love the good parts, the bad parts, every single moment... (whispers: this is easier said than done)

I have been having really bad seizures lately. Meds are not therapeutic, so we have to up the doses... That's fine. I'm glad to have a plan...

This has taken me awhile, so here is my declaration:

I love all of me. I love me even when I can't smile (the seizures cause my left side to not obey as it were...)

I love me even when I'm cranky or hangry.

I love me even when I'm exhausted from just walking 50 feet.

I love me almost every moment. I slip up too... We all do.

My heart is full.

I know I am loved. I love in return.

I love more than I ever have, because I allow it into my once cracked heart.

My soul heals with every moment, as I breathe, knowing Christ is King.

Knowing Spirit is around me and blessing me and giving me the strength to bless others.

I know...

I know that I don't know everything.

I know life is this unpredictable, sometimes scary journey.

What I know is I want to live this journey to the best of my ability.

I am so glad to be living in this moment.


I did something strange in the last 24 hours. I posted two pictures. One was of me with my husband, dancing our first dance at our reception. I was sporting my insulin pump for #showmeyourpump.

The next one is slightly more daring. I took my picture with my smile during a seizure day... I do this because we can all do this. We can put one foot in front of the other. We can enjoy life. We can learn to love. We can learn to love ourselves, others and be kind to ourselves and others. We can be better and keep on swimming 8D

So my challenge to you, dear reader, is to care for yourself and love yourself. You can conquer life and whatever trials that are in front of you.