Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Resting in His love and some decision about indecision

One of my favorite verses is Zephaniah 3:17 -- The Lord your God is in your midst,
    a mighty one who will save;
he will rejoice over you with gladness;
    he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing.

I'm regimented. This is the understatement of the century. I like to have everything in place. Life just isn't this way. I'm getting better about living in the moment, and showing my children how to do so as well. 

My boyfriend is wonderful at helping me with this. He's pretty laid back, so he keeps me in check and helps me and my boys, for that matter, enjoy life so much easier. I am very blessed he is in our lives. 

He helps me to rest in God's arms as well in a more peaceful manner. My little vision to calm me down when I'm upset is that God picks me up as a father would pick up his child, and He holds me and gives me peace. I sit on his lap and we talk, just like I would talk to a friend. This helps me so much. I've gone back to this, and I'm glad. 

The plan was to become a LVN, then rn with an associates. Now, I am seeing how little one can do with either of those. Most hospitals are requiring a Bachelors' degree at this point. So with the support of my awesome man, we are embarking upon getting me into a university and going for a Bachelors. I know this is the right thing to do and I have changed my mind a bit, but this is good. it's ok to be flexible. I can't really touch my toes though, but flexible in life, I suppose is what I mean. 8D

I have a new, but not new calling as well. After being in the hospital last week, and being told that I need to teach Advanced Diabetes classes for rns, i realize this is exactly what I would love to do. Also, it seems that much of the medical community doesn't really understand type 1 diabetes. 

God is so amazing and I am very thankful, my family has found a church home. We had been attending for about 4 months. We are very excited and everyone likes it. The people are awesome, as well. 

It's amazing how we become families. We meld and mesh until those around us become a support system we could never have anticipated. My heart has grown to include a child I already see as my own as well as my two. Effectively, I already feel I have 3 sons, regardless. I have stepped into a position that has long been vacant, and I must say, I know how blessed I am to have 3 amazing sons. 


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