Guinevere

so i'm writing this on lunch on my cell, so i'll proofread and correct later.

for those that listen to country music, you may know a song called guinevere by the Eli Young Band.

Songs in general are subjective and they mean something different to everyone. this reminds me of who i used to be, not letting love in. not forgiving... and truly thats the key to love and peace - forgiveness.


'she says forgiveness aint nothing but a lifeless tire on the shoulder of her road that never rolls.'


i heard this song shortly after someone challenged me to forgive and let go. i cried so hard. the peace that comes with forgiveness, with being ok with the unknown is so amazing. ive forgiven but not like this...

This song talks about how this girl let one person in, he broke her heart and so no one gets to stay. I was that girl for quite some time... The walls that i have built around me have fallen to a degree. i'm still careful, which is necessary... but it's a step 80)

i have had issues trusting in dating relationships. trust is so imprtant... i'm ok with walking this road....


i am so grateful for the lessons i have learned in life. and i am thankful for those in my life...