Perspective

Perspective is a huge word. Wow, everyone has something going on. We all are human. We all hurt. We all ache. We all love.

We all have a journey. We all have pain we are working to overcome.

No matter how bad our situation is, there are others that are going through worse.

Constantly, I have challenges from life, God, Spirit, however you might characterize it. I will ask what do I work on next, I will get a sense of what to do and continue to work on it. It may be to smile more. It may be to observe my dealings with others rather than reacting. It could be anything. It may be different challenges that build upon one another or I might be jumping around. This is how I heal, how I learn, how I become a better me.

This week has been very intriguing. I have had a bad week healthwise. And I'm having trouble hiding it. I push myself to all extents and I just didn't have it anymore and several saw it. It's one thing for my family members to know some of the limits of this, but when it's pretty bad, things get harder. Tempers flare, frustration ensues, and that's for everyone. Perspective is very deep in this part in that we all are coming from somewhere, but we have to find out where. Our reactions are a road map to the problems, to the pain sometimes. It can be pain from many years ago or from yesterday. Healing those pains in ourself help us to react less to others pain.

I've been opening myself up to this lesson and something unexpected happened. There are those times when people you know have scary situations you never knew about. I feel thankful for what i do have. I am sad they are going through all they are going through.

And this leads us to a lesson for me this week. There's a friendly acquaintance of mine that i ran into twice this week. The first time was no biggie, but a bit unusual. believe it or not, i just don't run into people that much around here. I'll say that and then there will be a huge deluge. And that would be fine 8). We saw a sign for a garage sale with something at the bottom that indicated it was to raise money for a certain disorder. Being that someone in our family has the disorder, we went there and I was surprised to see it was her. The family member affected by this disorder talked with her and she felt really helpless before, so that was good. In addition, she shared a little more of what was going on and it just opened my eyes in a different way. We all need to help each other. But there's that line that we have to help ourselves and everyone has crap to go through (maybe i'm using the word crap because it's literal right now since our toilets are backed up again). But the thing is there is so much to deal with. And this dance of learning and growing and healing is what we call living.

As i am trying to open up to others about my trials, it helps to see someone else do so. It gives me strength. As we ebb and flow in this ocean we call humanity, there is peace and strength in numbers. There is peace in us, sometimes it only is here when we are all working together. That is a very comforting thought.