Winterfest and Build-a-bear!!!

So, i took the goobers out to Arlington this morning while I worked. They went to Winterfest at their church (when they are with their dad) and I met them there. I knew it was happening, but I didn't know what to expect. They had oodles of bounce houses and a rock wall and all sorts of games and crafts. Too bad I didn't think to bring my camera and I don't have a camera phone at this point, so we don't have pictures of us trying to scale a rock wall. Darn. Well, I wish i had pics of the boys on the rock wall, but glad that there are no pictures to document my futile attempt at climbing. I made it six feet. You read right, six feet. I was in my work clothes. That's my excuse, but I was in tennis shoes, so i should have made it further. A friend gave me some hand-me-up shoes yesterday and they were still in my car, so I was very glad for them. Can't imagine climbing a rock wall in ballet flats or bare feet (some people were trying that) or socks (some people were trying that too). Tristan literally made it one foot on the rock wall. Avery made it two feet. I think they were having fun falling and having the rope catch them, since we were harnessed in and all that good stuff. It was windy though, I was trying to find my footing, and the wind blew really hard, and i was down 80).

The kids had so much fun on obstacle courses and bounce houses. They enjoyed seeing their soccer coach from earlier this year too, since he was there as well. But alas, it was a great deal of fun. We were unable to make it to the primary activity for the church they attend with me, but I guess we can't always do everything 80(.

In waiting for the rock wall, a girl asked me how old I am. She thought i was 16. That hasn't happened in awhile. I have gotten 18 lately, but not sixteen. Crazy...

Some cute things:
When we were waiting in line for the rock wall, Tristan said he was going to play at the basketball throw next to the rockwall, and he told Avery to keep me company. Avery threw his arms around me and looked at me and said, "I am keeping you company." It was adorable.

I am so proud of my awesome children.

Tonight, we went to Walmart, and Tristan decided to help me as much as possible. Inadvertantly, he slammed the cart into the back of my right leg. He didn't mean to and he profusely apologized. The lines were horrible and so we danced while waiting in line, which was awesome.

After this weekend, I won't see them for a week and a half, because of Christmas holiday, but i get them new years week. I will miss them, but it will be awesome having them here for a week. 80)

My aunt from Arizona sent my boys twenty dollars each, so I let them spend it how they wanted. They decided that they wanted to go to build-a-bear. This was going to be something they were going to ask Santa for, so they just got it a bit early. So on Thursday, we went to Build a bear. Tristan got a dog named Puppy and Avery got a turkey named Bill Nye. My youngest is slightly obsessed with Bill Nye. They also had enough money to get an article of clothing for their stuffed animals, so they got camoflauge shorts. Every stuffed animal needs camoflauge boxers, right? They barely fit on the turkey. It's quite a sight.

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My own two feet - My newfound perspective

So I have been thinking of this blog for awhile. I am finally ready to write it.

I am a romantic. I don't know if one would deem me as a hopeless romantic, but it has been said. When I was younger, I really was. I dreamed of fairy tales and that the heroine would be me. As I grew up, I realized that fairy tales are just that, and that reality is drastically different. I know that, but I guess there is still that part of me that dreams of being swept off of my feet.

I know now that I cannot wait for a man to save me. This is a huge lesson for me. I know this may be of a personal nature, but I just have to share it. Maybe someone else is going through the same thing and can be touched by what I say. I hope so. Even to say that there is someone else who has felt or is dealing with the same thing they are.

I knew in my mind that I shouldn't wait for a man to save me, but I didn't know how to change it. So much has happened, and a lot of it has to do with voicing what i want and willing it to happen. I have a wonderful friend that often talks about affirmations and how we make so much of our future happen, because we prepare for it in our minds and with our actions.

I realize that I am a wonderful person, and I am becoming more and more what I want to be on a daily basis. I am growing and I am so proud of who I am becoming.

I have come to the realization that I am strong, through my Heavenly Father, and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13). I am more and more that strong woman I never dreamed I could be.

So I realize that I have to save myself in the sense that I can change my circumstances to a point and that i can stand on my own two feet. I can do this, I can be independent. I can do so much. I can rely on Heavenly Father and my wonderful friends and a few family members, knowing that they have my back as I am helping to raise the two most wonderful boys in the whole entire world (I may be slightly biased 80) ).



So, do I still like romantic movies and fairy tales? absolutely! but as long as I keep in mind the fact that life is full of realities, then I am ok. Just to remember to keep it all in perspective 80).

Desultory Movie Questions Regarding Holly's Movie Watching Habits

Ooh, I love these and i couldn't resist(copied from a friend)

1. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times:
there's oodles: Abyss, Batman (the one from 89ish with Michael Keaton in it), Mr. Smith Goes to Washington, Flushed Away, Cars, Beauty and the Beast, Sense And Sensibility, Phantom of the Opera, Jurassic Park, Anne of Green Gables, Anne of Green Gables: the Sequel, Sleepless in Seattle, The Holiday, You've Got Mail, V for Vendetta, Borrowed Hearts, The Muppet Christmas Carol, The Muppets take Manhattan, Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone,Princess Bride

2. Name a movie that you've seen multiple times in a theatre:
most from awhile back - Sleepless in Seattle, Jurassic Park, So I married an Axe Murderer, Beauty and The Beast, Lion King

3. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie:
Gerard Butler, Viggo Mortenson

4. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven't gotten around to it:
Blues Brothers, The Notebook, any James Bond movies

5. What movie do you wish you had never seen?
one of the freddy krueger films, can't remember the name

6. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie:
Brittany Spears

7. Name a movie that you can quote from at will:
Phantom of the opera, Cars, Flushed Away, Meet the Robinsons, Beauty and the beast

8. Name a movie musical that you know all the lyrics to all the songs:
Phantom of the Opera

9. Name a movie that you have been known to sing along with:
Phantom of the opera or any that i know the lyrics to.

10. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see:
Twilight, Hidalgo

11. Name a movie that you own:
V for Vendetta

12. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another medium but who has surprised you with his/her acting chops:
Dwight Yokum (i can't spell his name but he's a country singer). You think i jest but in panic room, he was *scary*

13. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in theatre:
nope

14. Ever made out in a movie?
Nope, not to my recollection

15. Ever walked out of a movie:
yes

16. Name a movie that made you cry in the theater:
8 Seconds, Bridge to Terabithia, Beauty and the Beast, Dark Knight, Sleepless in Seattle, Divine Secrets of the Ya ya sisterhood, Driving Miss Daisy, Wall-e, Twilight

17. Popcorn?:
Occasionally.

18. How often do you go to the movies:
not super often, i tend to rent movies or go to the dollar theater unless it's a must see now (Twilight for example)

19. What's the last movie you saw in the theater:
Twilight

20. What is your favorite/preferred genre of movie:
ya know, i don't really have one. I love romantic comedies, action, kids movies, some fantasy. just depends

21. What was the first movie you remember seeing in the theater:
ET

22. What is the weirdest movie you enjoyed:
weird is in the eye of the beholder 80) i don't know.

23. What is the scariest movie you've ever seen:
i saw a freddy kreuger movie. i don't like scary movies much.

24. What is the funniest movie you've ever seen:
Blades of Glory is one of them. I know there are others.

The ability to make decisions

As I continue my foray into the serious, let me say that I am still light-hearted. I just know there are some things that I am not liking about me right now. Numerous times, I have found that others are making important decisions for me, decisions that I want to help make or at least be able to give my point of view.

And, as I had an epiphany, i realize that the reason this transpires is that I have an inability to make decisions. I am one of the most indecisive people, and I have decided that this portion of me is changing. I am starting with any decisions, whether it's where we eat or whatnot. I have commenced this, and it's really going somewhat well, but I need to kick the decision making into high gear. My sons are starting to get used to it. I used to never make many decisions with them, especially small ones, but they are about as indecisive as me, so it can sometimes take us 30 minutes to decide what to do.

So, I am making a goal. I am setting a time limit in which i need to make a decision. Even if my decision is not honored, that's fine, but it's good to get my brain thinking and being more decisive, so that in the big things, I can give my opinion and not be afraid of others' opinions of me. I think that's a huge portion of it. I am scared of living with the decisions I make. I am scared it will be wrong.

But i can't live in fear. One of my favorite scriptures is "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear; because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love(1 john 4:18).

So I will implement this. I will squish that fear until it begs for mercy or until its' eyes pop out. That was nice imagery 80)

The ability to move

This is something I have been thinking about lately. I have the tendency to procrastinate... a LOT. And I was contemplating the facets of this and why, how to combat it, and so on and so forth. Friends' urgings help sometimes, but i find that there are some things that I don't act until i absolutely *have* to. This is something that I am changing, because, while procrastination can be ok to a point, I procrastinate with a vengeance. I just don't think that this is how I want to live. I know it's not.

So why am I thinking of this? The boys and I are moving to a different apartment, and it didn't take an act of congress. A friend's support helped, but ultimately, it was my choice and not caused by a brick wall, where I had to act.

I know that procrastination goes along with my astrological sign, but there's more to it than that. I think that I must examine my fears that cause me to remain stagnant at times. The ability to move, to adapt, is important, imperative really. I long to become untangled from the fear that sometimes immobilizes me, causing this temporary paralysis.

This is a really positive step. I am really excited, and thankful 80)